rachel lorraine merrell - Online Memorial Website

Hello my sweet, It has been a long time since I came to this site.  I seem to avoid the pain by avoiding the visit to this special place where all who you have touched recall their fondest memories.  Every day was special with you.  Not a second goes by that you are out of my head and especially my heart.  We know you are well.  You make sure to let me know.  I thank GOD for that.  Your sweet smiling face blesses my dreams now and then.  Wish more, but I am thankful for any moment I hold you in my arms, talk to you and feel you coming thru.  Your family and friends miss you so much.  If only we as humans could have a glimpse of what it is truly like in Heaven, only then would we have true peace.  But alas, GOd has his ways, not like ours, and that is and will be the "Great Mystery" until that awesome day we see HIM coming for us in the Clouds.  JESUS..say hi for me.  I love you more than anything in the world.  I would have traded my life for yours in a heartbeat, now that is what seperates us...my heartbeat.  I am hangin on, and know you are happy and safe.  Come again precious.  Look out for your brothers, sisters and nieces and nephew.  I know they see you!

October 16th, 2008.  Has it really been almost 7 months since you went home?  I know you do not feel that time apart other than you rejoice in the presense of GOD and his SON every day.  You light and love shines down upon us, please continue to send your signs.  It is how we make it through another day.  Happy 18th birthday my precious angel.  I miss you more than my heart can bear.  I am privileged and blessed to call you my child, now my angel.    I promise I will try to stay strong for the family, till GOD sees fit to come and reunite us all again.  I believe that day is close.  We all love you more than words can describe.  Please stay close.  We know you are.  Thank you for the butterflies and your kisses on my head.  I know you are doing wonderful.  We need to remember that and get through each day with happiness in our hearts for you.  See you in Paradise.  Till then have fun. 

I have lots of memories I could share, I have know Rachel since she was 2. I think her white eyeshadow ara is my favorite. I miss her with all my heart and only wish she would call me and ask if she could come and see Roxy.

May 30, 2008

My dear Loved Ones of Rachel,

My fondest memory with Rachel was when she was 5; I was visiting the family in Oregon, she was sick, running a fever and not feeling well.  I sat on the couch with her head on my lap gently stroking her hair and putting a moist cloth to her sweating forehead.  She was still, quite, and I was able to bring comfort to her little body.  It was a moment that Little Rachel allowed me to experience what it is like to be a mom and comfort their little one.  Thank you Rachel for that memorable moment – you are missed and loved,

Aunt Phyllis

My dear sweet baby girl.  My world is empty and incomplete without you.  You were my shining star, and always will be.  Each breath I take is harder than the one before, but it also brings me one day closer to you in HEAVEN.  I know you are with me, and that is what brings me peace.  When you send your energy and presence to comfort me, I seem to be able to make it through one more minute.  I love you with all my being, my soul and spirit, the very essence of WHY you left, will be what I search for until I can ask the question to GOD myself.  I long for the day when I can hold you again.  Until that special day, I promise to try to bring back as much of who I was until you left.  Fill that empty hole in my heart with your smiling beautiful, angelic face.  Eternity is forever, just like my love for you.  I see you as an angel, but then you always were.  We miss you so much baby girl.  My precious GIFT from GOD!!  Have fun in paradise, but remember your momma needs you too.  I LOVE YOU FOREVER AND ALWAYS....